Much of the day was spent skulking around the round tower building which sits off the shore of Geransius. There was no sign of too many by-passers on the other side of the Fortian Mote. It gave me time to reminisce about the trials of my life.
I let my mind wander back to the day I took another human’s life. That day has been undesirably etched into my mind. It might not have been that long ago, come to think of it. Death is not uncommon; the average person does not know a life expectancy of more than 40 years – understandable we do live the life of ultimate self-sacrifice to our state.
It was conditioned in us that death was a matter of unimportance.
Death. That was omnipresent in the Battle of Vernese, where almost 60,000 fighters valiantly contested with their own lives. The epic amount of personnel formed confusion over which soldier was on who’s side…too many people died for reasons that were unruly – everyone just wanted to kill someone else.
That day sketches out in my mind in muddy colour and is revived with the memories of the desperately charged yells, frenzied hysteria, fall of weaponry and shrieks of pain. How can anyone even begin to overlook those overbearing sufferings – how can we sell a human’s life away like that?
This morning, I sledged yet another being’s life. The wizard had told me that under the principals that had been embedded into our lives for over 5000 years, we should move on and be unaffected by death. ‘Be indifferent to human life,’ was what he said. I don’t think that’s possible if you are capable of holding any one human dear. All you need is one other.
I say my prayers for the blessed souls that fall victim to death.
I must stay focused to each day, though. Another one crosses itself off from this operation. It has been 5 months and I’ve walked through endless amounts of dim passageways; everytime with a hope of finding an illumination in the mystery that is the Theonopolian armour location. The end of this particular trial would see me walking away from this anarchy.
Still, I know cannot let Triden down.
